Ok, so I see a nurse at a behavioral center. For my Bi-Polar. And.. the reason I am upset with her is because she just.. does not get it that I do not like Depakote. Period. I personally don't believe I have Bi-Polar.. because.. it's just, I cannot do anything withought being and feeling miserable. And.. its really getting me upset, because it seems like she doesn't listen to me when I tell her, it makes it hard to concentrate and focus, I can't even write or read anymore withought thinking about the next thing I'm gonna do, or wanna do, or talking to people. I've tried audiobooks, tried someone reading to me, tried notes. But.. nothing.. helps it seems.

Now I do have a disease called Muscular Dystrophy (MD), which causes my muscles to be weak and I get tired more easy. And I tell her, constantly at almost every appoitment, that Depakote makes me tired.. it makes me miserable. And when I'm tired, I'm like 10x more tired feeling than you, because of my disease, and it.. seems she just doesn't get it that I don't want to be tired. And ultimatly.. I can't.. be tired.. because if I'm tired and depressed I cannot do anything, or want to do anything. I have total loss of interest in anything, I used to love Photography, and now I find it... lame and boring especially. I hardly do homework at all anymore because I'm so miserable feeling..

So.. any ideas of how I could explain to her how I am feeling inside? I have an appoitment with her tommorrow.