The 3 things you listed don't specifically apply to me. although sometimes I do things a certain number of times. Like washing my mouth after brushing my teeth. I ALWAYS rinse 4 times, if not I feel as if I still have toothpaste in my mouth it will go down my throat and I will get sick. And I do things an even number of times too usually. And my mind automatically associates letters with being even or odd as if it were a number. and same for words sometimes. Like the letter T to me is even, while S is odd. And O is even even though it falls on an odd number in the alphabet. And like if I walk one way to get someplace, then I go the same way back, and sometimes like if i turn one way to look at something, if I turn completely around that same way to get back to what i was looking at at first, i feel weird.
And like back when I was 8, before I knew anything about OCD, I remember I would be line in a car, and think of like blue color covering everything I saw exactly at the same time, but there was always part that wasn't exact, and so I kept doing it and I would do it like the whole car ride, depending how long it was. Like 10 minutes maybe. and then when I finally got everything "blue" (pretending) at the same time then I would be like, but what about space. and it would happen all over again. Because then i got all what I saw, but then space wasnt blue at the same time either. something like that. (I consider blue even too :P)
Like in school. I HATE scratching out stuff, since I don't like using pencil I use pen, and like any mistake I get all worked up about. its hard to describe everything. describing it seems to loose that feeling it has when its going on. But the OCD test gives me a 26. and most the stuff on there I can relate to.
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