I am so pissed I just wrote this most beautiful email to you. I'm sorry you are hurting. And f off those ******holes!!!! Have you tried working on your self esteem? Maybe check out that book I wrote about in my post the other day? Other peoples posts on self e? Cancel the flippin dinner. Say you changed your mind or something. Take a class in something to gain some mastery . I took an art class on jewelry making. Just a sat. class but I picked up my creations today and they look gr8. Made me feel like a star!!! Email me anytime. I'm sending you hugs.