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Originally Posted by cantstopcrying
What you don't know is that I am not a people person.
I FAILED.
I f****** let a tear slip down my cheek!!! Real ******* professional.
I have such a hard time being around people,
I have struggled so hard with my self esteem.
I have tried so hard to believe in myself and stop the record that says I suck, I'm worthless, I'm hated.
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CSC, I am going to take the tough approach here. These are the facts of your life, you admit that you have trouble with people, did his confirming this take away your denial of the issue? Denial makes it harder to solve the problems.
Why do you call this failure? Reframe it, CSC. You just need to work on these issues. You are a smart woman who obviously got this position in the first place. Failure should not be in your vocabulary. A more helpful term might be "I have some problem solving to do". Look forward, don't get weighed down with the issues, keep moving (but not in denial!).
What is wrong with crying in front of this doctor? Do you think that he has never seen anyone cry before? Tears are appropriate in this situation.
Trying to convince yourself that you don't have these problems doesn't make them go away. Only facing the issues and acting on them will make them go away.