Thank you for your response. I don't try to deny these exist, I know they exist. I readily admit I'd rather have a computer than people in my office. I am not comfortable around people, I don't fit in. Having him say these things was not bringing them forward when I was trying to deny them, it was not recognizing the positive things I do around here, it was hurting an already hurt person--who admitted I know these things about me and that I don't like them--, it was. I call it failure because 1.) I tried not to cry and I failed and 2.) I have tried very hard to be approachable, likeable, nice, etc and I failed. It is what it is. My t always tells me to take failure out of my vocabulary and usually I agree. This time I don't. I know, he didn't make me feel this way, I am choosing to feel this way. I know all that. It doesn't ease the pain. I sat there last night listening to the same thing over and over and tried thinking "it's ok, you're going to take this in and make it a positive. you are going to do it." But there are only so many times I can listen to being told that the doctors don't like, let alone the staff, before the record kicks in again and takes over. It's my choice to be sitting here crying--I could choose to go hug everyone and do a happy dance, but crying when hurt is who I am and hurting--I suppose as you say by the truth is who I am too. I know he has seen people cry, he doesn't like it. He doesn't like it in his patients--he has walked out of a room before when someone was crying--and he shouldn't have to have it in his Research Administrator. I have never ever tried to convince myself I don't have these problems. They are a big reason why I'm even here at pc. Now I'm considering erasing this whole response because I'm afraid I sound mean and I don't want to come across as that. I just want to make the point that I know I'm not a people person, have never denied it (I used to have a t-shirt that said "do I look like a freakin' people person!). What has me upset is the way he chose to approach this, the fact that this was discussed in a board meeting that was not even about me, the fact that he cares so little that he can lie like that and especially that, in talking to one of the doctors and my manager this morning, its not even about me! He is trying to prove that I have an issue that needs "counselling" and I need "written up" and my manager hasn't done it. It could have been anyone, it could have been the copy girl in medical records if her name had been brought up. He is trying to prove that the manager is not doing her job by pointing out that the only thing in my record is my yearly review comments about it, not continuous reprimands and if everyone hates me so, there should be documentation. He's trying to prove she is not doing her job and used me to throw under the bus. He just happened to pick someone who has been under the bus too long and is having a hard time getting up and I don't even know if any of that made sense without knowing all that is going on in this lovely little business. Thank you for your help and insight.