First things first

I promised to send my friends a rainbow and this is a double for you. I'm sure it really didn't help much so we'll just skip that part.

As I've read your posts I had the feeling I knew exactly what you were saying. Unfortunately I'm a frog of little brain (found my dirty breakfast dishes in the bathroom sink) and don't remember a lot. But when I read through your post I found myself yep, that's right. I'm so good at not liking people that I have no friends IRL.

And I do understand the feelings of preferring computers to people. I do have a sewing machine that I can yell at as an added bonus.

From your posts I can understand the crying and crying and crying. But you also seem to have an inner strength that you can draw upon. You have done it before and you will do it again of that I'm sure.

There is a book, I think that you might find interesting now if I could only remember the name. It was something like "Who moved my cheese" but I'm not sure.