ok so for most my lif I have always been a very shy and anxious person my teenage years were a little different I went out got into drugs and once seen a thereapist for substance abuse and she said I was bi polar which I don't angry cause a lot of the times I knew why I was lashing out but anyway back on the subject of being anxious after I had my kids my anxiety about multiple things were worse I worried about food posioning contaminatied I would constanlty wash things till I felt it was ok I constantly had to ask if food was cooked I feared my kids getting the plauge or any other disease I always check myself for illness physically mentally ect ome people say im a hypocondriac now I have been having these awful horrible intrusive thoughts feeling and images of hurting my children which cause distress worry and panic I notice its worse when I know im about to be alone and fear of acting on impulses this is completely not me at all it occasionally brings me to tears and makes me feel im losing my mind or im going crazy sometimes these thougts will shift and be about other people I don't know which makes me feel worse! through out my life I have takin przac rittlen paxil while I was prego hich come to found out isn't good for pregnancy um we'll butrin an that's all I remember I know when I was on prozac I was worse I just feel that if I know what is wrong I can help myself with out meds to get better!