Oh kebs, thank you so much. The rainbows really did help. I love double rainbows, they are so pretty. I am so happy that you can relate so well. You have me beat, I don't have a sewing machine--any more. Me and the seam-ripper got to be best friends, the sewing machine was jealous, so I took it on a date...to the side of the road on garbage day!!! Thank you for seeing that inner strength. I forget about it sometimes, but you're right. I need to draw on it and make it through this. Who moved my cheese---I think thats the book about adapting to change. (and after my mouse issues so recently in the past, maybe I'll wait on cheese anything! ). question--where you eating while showering again? Is that why your dishes were in the bathroom? Thank you so much for the cheer and support.