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silentandscared · Nov 06, 2008, 04:44 PM

(((((((((( Jinny)))))))))))

thank you it is too much as you rightly said......the problem is me l see somethin l go with it and it crushes me.....want it all gone yesterday and that just isnt going to happen, l know it but l keeep doing it..crazy......l dont want all this to be true it makes my whole life a lie......dont kow what l should think or feel anymore.... what is right and what is wrong....no answers too much confusion all locked in my head... so what happens they add another kickinthe teeth just to make sure that it dam well hurts ... well it doess they have won....do your worst because there is nothing left for them to do to me...no one will ever do this to me again that is about the only thing that l do know.......... this is no longer the mat here we wipe our feet on the way in.......l am human and l hurt so please just stop these are the words that l said to my pdoc on Tuesday due to his typical male reaction to my concerns
says things like well
if you just do this
think like this
accept what has happened
so what he did was confirm what l already feel this happened to me because l allowed it to, l didnt stop it, l didnt tell anyone, now these are my consequences of my actions..........
sorry jinny none of this is aimed at you but just feel like my flood gates are open and l am drowning just needed to say it all and get it out of me. sorry!!!!!!!!