Well this blows. Im getting evicted soon, me my dad and the guy we live with. I dont know if we're going to go back to MA again, but strangely I really dont want to. I never wanted to come here, and now that I might be leaving, I dont want to go back. Strange how things work out, huh? I dont know, I guess this is just a rant or something, just so I can get everything out of my system. All my friends in MA would tell me that Im ****ing crazy and that theres no way I could want to stay. But I do, I mean, Ive made it this long, I can make it a little longer, right?
I mean, I actually have more friends up here, than in Massachusetts. Which is strange.
I'm just realizing that the people up here have been here for me for more important things than my friends of many years have. They mean a lot to me, the people up here. I mean...I just dont want to go. I wish I could just wake up from this nightmare and have things the way I want it. I mean, Ive been living without the people in Mass for a while now, and Ive been kind of ok. Ive broken down a couple times, but Ive gotten better. And the people up here, I dont see myself getting over. Idk maybe Im just being some stupid teenager.

Please dont tell me my hormones are raging out of control, and I just have to suck it up. Or anything related to that, Im really not in the mood.