I have been posting on here about the stuff I have been going through as I was laying here and I started remebering when the first time I had a unwanted thought and urge about harm towards my kids was about a yr ago when my son was two that freaked me out I was able to dismiss this thought and urge of that feeling till now and now I feel all anxious like im gonna become one of those moms u here about on tv and I started thinking well it started then now its gonna get worse and im worry im gonna be one of them im rambaling sorry but have to get it out I have been told on here to see a therapist but I have no insurance and no good docs around where I live I just wanna know im normal and need reasurrance