that's what I think it is to cause(ocd) I have never been a person like that to my kids I really think its been since I have been watching my sisters kids which in my opion need help with behavior and they are hard for me to control them and I get stressed!I get annoy easier now to it sucks! I just wanna be normal again I wanna be myself and what's weird is I also starting feeling different like not a emotionally close to my kids since this and that starts making me panic then I say that im just not feeling a close as I used to cause of the ocd