Thanks so much for the reply Fury. I've done some soul searching about the ex issue. I don't think that I'm jealous in the sense that you might think. I'm definately not in love with her anymore. I think my reasons for being upset are more than that. To start off, she's found a friend with benefits for lack of a better term cause she's not dating the guy, but she'll probably start that soon. And I want that too but I know that since I'm moving in 7 months or maybe sooner it's kinda pointless for me to even think about beginning a relationship. For her, she's going to live the rest of her life here so it's quite comfy for her. I guess I'm more jealous of what she's got and what I won't allow myself to have. The other thing is that her being here is a constant reminder of the previous fact. And that being the case, it's kind of hard to find some kind of closure. she cares so much and wants to make sure that I'm ok until I leave, but it sure is difficult given the current situation. She still doesn't have the money to move cause she doesn't make much and can't scrape up the dough for deposits and such. She can however afford to pay me rent. So I'm still torn about that and we're gonna talk about it tonight. She mentioned that she kinda feels that her actions might be inappropriate given the circumstances and in a sense I agree. But at the same time if this guy (and I know him... he's really a nice guy) is gonna make her happy I don't want her giving that up for me. That's not really fair, is it? Input on that one please regarding appropriate or inappropriate behavior. Now to the ferrets. When I move home, I'll be working full time and going to school full time and won't have the time or energy to care for them. That being said, the best thing for me to do is work with the local shelter while I'm here and try to find a home where they don't have to be split up. Anyway, thanks again Fury for the input and I hope you've got more given what I've just said. Much love dear.
Ry
|