I fully support people's right to be polyamorous and I wondered for a time if that was my path too. But I've figured out for me personally that I am monogamous, that is what I want in a mate, and that is what I found.

Early on I wondered too if my monogamous sensibilities were only old teachings and habits that I could shed, so when I was young I experimented, kept listening to my own feelings and instincts, and discovered myself as I am now.

I don't know what would have happened if I'd fallen in love with a good man who was polyamorous.

There is a good book out called The Ethical Slut, can probably even get it through a public library. Worth reading, can give you ideas as you work through what you want.