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Originally Posted by sunrise
But I do know I can't fake being angry to him when I don't feel it. It would be very hard to pretend something to him I was not feeling, just for the sake of... what? Thoroughness? I do have this feeling that if he were to ignore an email from me again, it would be a huge trigger for me, so that tells me that you probably all are right, and I am not done with this.
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Sunrise, I had the same thought when I read your email thread, and that you didn't even get to discuss it with your T. I was worried that, if it were me, that next time it happened, probably all those same feelings would come back, even stronger, and that it would be better to deal with it now.
But there is also something to be said for getting through difficult, immediate obligations, and not creating more upset than you can handle. If you needed to not address that now, in order to be able to handle every thing else on your plate, that might have been the best decision for you. You know yourself better than we do
But...just because you didn't bring it up during the last session doesn't mean that you can't/shouldn't in the future. Just because your strong anger/hurt/whatever has passed, doesn't mean it wasn't real at the time and shouldn't still be acknowledged. Often I feel strong things in between session, and just because I've moved on by the time my session rolls around, doesn't mean it's not helpful for us to discuss them. Maybe, when you feel more able to handle it, you could revisit this incident. Not in an accusatory/angry way, if you're not comfortable with it, but explaining/narrating to your T, that even though you don't still feel that way, this is how you did feel at the time (maybe read from the post or something if you need to be reminded/help him see what you were feeling). Just a thought.
(And for the record, I think it would be helpful for your T to understand that his disorganization around communications does impact other people -- you might be doing him a favor by helping him see that).