Thanx Fayerody. I really could use some support. I'm working on getting into counseling but it could take some time. I just really use some incouragement. I used to be so full of laughter and life was so great. But this situtation with my husband and his hurtful ways have really turned me into a bitter person. I stay sad all the time. I always see the negative in things anymore. And I always feel that the nice things that happen are the calm before the storm so to say. If something good happens it always seems like something really bad is going to happen. I just want to be happy again. I want to be loved. I want to get over the pain of his cheating and controlling ways. How? Am I going to be miserable for the rest of my life?