Have you spoken about all this in detail with your psychologist? I was seeing a psychologist before i moved to where am i now in the country and afew things i learnt was that you should always go into detail with the things that are a problem in your life instead of just saying afew words then leaving it upto your psych to ask you questions. Also dont be afraid to ask questions about how would i possibly overcome this problem like about what you said with your friends. you have to remember your psychologist is there to try and help you through your problems but you have to let them know how much something is really effecting you. Perhaps you should ask if you could possibly make a list of the thing which trouble you the most then ask if you can try and worth through them together. Also ask your psychologist about the possibility of Borderline Personality Disorder also and see what he / she has to say.

Ive learnt now that help dosnt always come running to you, you need to ask for it and if you feel cetrain ways and you dont know why explain them to your psych and ask for their personal opinion and maybe for some advice on how to start trying to cope or improve things. This is just my personal opinion and other peoples opinions may be different but im just letting you know what ive learnt.

Also when you say I don't want to be labled something the rest of my life. I remember the 1st day a doctor diagnosed me with psychosis i was so scared that i had been labeled and that everyone around me who found out would abandon me. But i believe if anything its made me a stronger person and allowed me to accept not only myself but other people with various problems in their life, whether they be mental health problems, other health problems or people going through a rough time. I feel i am a better person because of what i have been through.

I have been through psychosis, currently still have some anxiety issues and depression. Being labeled dosnt make you any different. It just gives doctors and yourself a direct explanation of a certain problem you have in your life at this present time. If you are worried about people labeling or treating you differently then you dont need to tell them about it. I tend to be very honest about myself to my friends and family now about the problems i have had both in the past and currently and my family and true friends have still stuck by me. In the end the friends who decided not to stick by me because of me telling them about my illness dont deserve to be my friends anyway. I really cant care less about them. If anything its shown me who the real decent people are. Now when i meet new people i tend to let them get to know me before i tell them about it so that they can judge me on who i am as a person and not just on the unknown or incorrect knowledge they have of my condition. As Ozzie said in a post i read "I think that people are naturally afraid of those things that they don't understand" and because of that fact i always wait for people to see who i am as a person rather than letting them judge me just on the name of my illness.

I hope this is of some help to you and possibly lets you see things from another point of view. I hope you check back with us again and let us know how you are doing.

Roy.