First thing I have to say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. It may not seem happy, but you made it through another year, which at times can be a huge accomplishment on its own.

As for what's been bugging you, let me tell you this about medications. They're not designed to make your problems go away, they're just designed to help you cope with them better. You'll go from being upset about spending money on the bills to feeling up enough to get yourself working and earning the money. Never had a boyfriend? I'm my girlfriend's first boyfriend, and she's older than you. It's not a bad thing at ALL, trust me. Along with all the good things in relationships, there are many hardships. You'll enjoy and cherish that special person when he comes even more if you're feeling better. A therapist and medication are just tools to help you deal with everything. Once you've got those tools, you'll be much better equipped to get out there and do what you want Kind of like getting better gear on WoW... the Master Sword in Legend of Zelda... Or maybe a fire flower in Super Mario? Okay, you might not be a gaming type, but that gets me into my last thing that I'll probably end up telling everybody here.

Find something you really cherish that can always be around for you to look at or enjoy when you're feeling down. It can be something as simple as a picture that makes you smile, a delicious treat that makes you warm up from the inside, or something as complex as making a mural in your room, creating a special space for yourself to relax in. I know it sounds corny, but trust me, it can be really helpful (I personally like soft blankets, pillows, a classic cartoon, and a mug of hot cocoa or cider =D).

I hope this helps somehow, and whatever you do, just keep hope, and take care of yourself!

~TheDeliciousDish