usual disclaimer of jmo/jme

I do understand your hesitation about taking meds, but they do not have to be a long term thing; however, that is sometimes necessary and there is nothing wrong with it.

It's important to get your symptoms under control then get your support system truly in place. When you are struggling just to get through the day, it's so very hard to think of anything else...and sometimes that doubles the guilt we may already have.

My SO has had significant improvement on Zoloft...as have others in his support group. He takes Klonopin for sleep.
His therapist is considered a pioneer in the treatment of PTSD, and he has helped my SO a great deal.
Here is a link with information put out by the Veterans Administration. The physicians, therapists, and patient work together to find what is of the most help.
Civilians and military alike are seeing benefits with these treatments.

http://www.mentalhealth.va.gov/MENTA...entforptsd.asp

I'm going to say something now, and I've no wish to offend you but I think it is the right thing for me to do...

You used the words mental weakness and coping skills got too weak. Weakness has nothing to do with what you are going through, and you may need to upgrade your coping skills but they are not weak.
You've shown a tremendous amount of courage in being honest and wanting things to be better. Please don't belittle yourself because you are having a rough time right now...
Perhaps your therapist can help you think of something to tell your kids that will reassure them...

Best wishes,
Cap