i t does sound like paranoia,its part of our illness.our sensory is very strong,and ive also had ideas about government,i take the thoughts as signs ,i know all of them may not be real,but they are my thoughts which mean something.so hang in there.they too shall pass and another good day will come. if the thoughts are overwhelming take a med,and sleep well.then the next day may be more quiter.wish you the best. in my opionion,i think we are very special people.