no.. it's going to be worse than i thought. He is unstable right now... very unstable.

he has not been... well, he has sometimes "been unkind" to me.. but that is as much as i am willing to say on here.

right now it is his assertion that he lives in one room in a house with others because i live in a small but nice apartment. That sounds plausible until you factor in that A) he has stated numerous times that he prefers living with others B) that he lives far away and the rent of my aprtment is the SAME as his one room and the biggest point is C) me moving into a crappy place won't make his place any nicer.

he still sees the money he gives me as somehow me receiving some "gift" from him out of his good heart and not support payments. He doesn't get it that he agreed to a particular amount and if i choose to have a nicer apartment and less of something else.. that has nothing to do with anything about him and isn't his business.

ugh... see? there i am *justifying* my decisions again. How quickly i fall into that. i become the inferior one.

the wave of anger i am going to have come my way is just horrible to think about but there isn't anything i can do.