(((((((((((((((((vienna)))))))))))))))))))))

There is no "right" way to do therapy, so I hope you can try to let that part go. Sometimes just showing up is the most "right" thing you can do.

I got really uncomfortable a couple of months into therapy, for just the reasons you are talking about. I'd never talked about this stuff before, I didn't know if I SHOULD talk about it, I didn't know what his reaction would be. Talk about scary.

I still get the urge to "run"...especially when something new comes up that we haven't talked about before. But there is some part of me that has known, since the beginning of therapy, that if I "run", I'll just end up back at some other therapist's office eventually. Everything was finally making me physically sick, and it just had to be dealt with.

I would ABSOLUTELY talk to your T about your doubts about therapy. For sure. He will be able to help you work through what you are thinking/feeling, and just talking out loud about it will probably help clarify it for you too.

Take your time.