(((((Brephi, Sannah)))))

I've thought about talking to my husband on my own, but I think we'd just end up in a fight. It might be more helpful to have him come into therapy with me and discuss it there. I made a huge realization this morning: I've been having difficulty taking a shower each day. On a good week I would shower 2-3 times a week. I just didn't know what the obstacle was to showering. Then this morning I was getting ready to shower and I felt so anxious that I had to push myself to shower. I realized that my husband thinks that my taking a shower is an invitation for s*x. That was an epiphany. Subconsciously I was not showering so I could keep my husband away from me. I'm not quite sure what the quick fix will be for this since I'm afraid of talking to him. I guess making an appointment for both of us with my therapist is the answer.

Anyway, thanks to all of you, I'm figuring some things out. It's great to have a place to discuss this stuff. It's interesting to see how my subconscious mind has been working. Fascinating actually.