idk i guess i'm just scared to open up to someone. i'm so used to keeping all my feeligns all bottled up. but thats just causing me to hurt myself more. i just feel like i can figure this all out myself, but now im having my doubts. i feel like im hte only one in the world because im so lonely. i feel like there is no one else there but me feeling this. how would going throuhg old posts help me?

and i just dont like to do anything anymore. the things that used to make me happy just dont mean anything to me anymore. i never have fun with anything i do. it sucks