Going through old posts may help you because even though you feel like you are the only one, theres a whole world of people who feel just like you do. Reading the ways others help and were helped may click something with you and give you some ideas or thoughts to help. The one thing that got me to go to a t was the fact that I didn't him and if I felt like I really botched it or like he wasn't a good fit, I never had to go back.