I do too and I find myself rambling about something that has nothing to do with what I'm saying. At least here I can erase and get back on track! I have a notepad I take into t and write down reminders of what I want to say and what he says. And I doodle. I don't think I've ever really looked at him. I take my glasses off, I scribble, I pet his dog, but I don't make eye contact. I guess that way I can't see his thoughts and opinions of me.