(((((((((( halliebeth )))))))))))))))
I am sorry that you are having a hard time. I can't answer if you will be okay or not, only you know exactly how you are feeling. Something that has helped me is to make a safety plan, for instance when I am feeling unsafe I go to bed, if that doesn't work then my plan is to call the crisis line and then go to the hospital if I am not any better. Just knowing what I would do in this situation seems to help calm me down, maybe it is something that you could try.