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Is PTSD like this? One minute its like your soilder looking for cover and though you can see the world with your eyes, your heart doesn't see it...
Its like when your in "it" there is no end, no beginning and no middle, its all rolled into one where survival is all that exists...relationships no longer exist, the days structure no longer exists...
then suddenly out of no where for a very, very short moment you can see clearly, you breathe, you think at last freedom from bondage, everything makes sense and what didnt make sense no longer exists, but within moments its all back again..
Where even to be close to someone is to much because all you see in them is your fears, your worries, your past...you want the world to go away..
People can tell you your in flashback but how does that help??? It doesn't infact it makes you feel worse because they are quite evidently on the outside and you on the inside...how can it get better!!!!?????
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Here is the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished. If you're alive, it isn't. ~Richard Bach
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