i've always been a devoted mother. i have also had the thoughts about hurting my children. i found when i worked in a day care center that these thoughts got worse and i was not as close to my own kids. i figured out after i went out on maternity leave that the problem was that i was putting so much of my "kid" energy into the other kids that i had nothing left over for my own. when i left the day care the thoughts got better, didn't go completely away but far less and i got close to my kids again. just my experience.

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