99% of the crap in this issue has been what I brought into it. My parents are very nice, but very prejudiced people. Their world is black or white. They do not get the shades. Growing up in their world left me with some of their ways buried into my own psych. I have struggled and mostly succeeded in getting passed these things in my own life. Where I failed most was getting passed them when relating to myself. I am by far my worst critic.

There will be more rocks to lift and see what squirmy things lurk beneath. That is ok. It might be fun.

For now, I feel an emotional vacation is needed. I hope to have a little down time before the October demons start blowing their fire at me.

All of you who have been cheering me on are so greatly appreciated. I don't know what I would have, could have done without you to talk to and listen to. The "real" world has no support groups even remotely as accessable and helpful as this place with you good people.

I hope you don't mind if I hang around. I am still a life long neurotic who always has something to stress about and this is a great place to let it all out.

Wherever you go, there you are