ok ive been manic for a few days.....i now am going to try to get my head together and realize im sick as much as ive tried to fight it.i have no way to desribe my thoughts on this and i am very sad right now for even being me.i hate myself,i try to pretend im ok and even on the internet im probally not accepted.i suppose ill just sit in my own tears,which are thought not real cause i cant feel anything in the correct way anyway.i wonder if my life will ever be right,normal.correct,or will i be a complete *** for the rest of it.anytime i try i go splat and its so pathetic anymore.