((((((((((((((((((((((((Christine))))))))))))))))))))))))) PTSD is not something to be ashamed of....although it took me a long time to accept that, and to admit that I had it, so I think understand how you feel.

For me, going REALLY SLOWLY in therapy has helped. That's the only way I can get through it. If your T asks you a question, and you start to cry, the T can handle that. I really am positive that crying in therapy is perfectly normal, acceptable, and okay, and that your T sees it literally every day. It doesn't make it FEEL any better for you, but it's part of the healing, and not something to feel shame about.

One of my T's send me an e-mail last night that said "tears are part of a stream that lead to an ocean of peace".