Thanks everyone... I should apologise 'cause I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. Had tough day today and it still isn't over. Got triggered a lot today, many times about J... been feeling really lonely and just generally awful... to top it off my brother has come home and he's told us that it's very likely he'll be made redundant (and be out by Friday with only 1 week pay) because his company is struggling because of the credit crunch... so that's putting pressure on the family now too.
Nothing wants to go right today... wonder what will be next, it's only 6pm