Cantstopcrying, I feel like you challenged my way of looking at the situation and I just
love it.

It was both fun and helpful. Your post made me stop, take a step back and take a second look at myself and the situation.
The appt went well, T answered all questions I gave her (decided to skip some of them because they look really silly now, lol), but despite that I feel low, because I feel like I talked a lot, but missed the main point. Oh well, I guess I can correct that next week.