yeah I know what triggers it I just hate this I wanna be normal I wish I had fears about contamination again it went from that to fears of the plauge mrsa having a tumor heart diease u name it now it like I have a fear of being one of those monster moms and being a phyco which so isn't my nature at all!! sometimes I just brake down and cry cause I don't understand why im thinking these thoughts when I don't want to I don't wanna be that person!!*crying*