I have a mtg with pdoc this afternoon to discuss the med "situation". I've already tapered off to almost non-existant, but I'm being careful not to trigger another emotional rollercoaster ride too by not getting enough sleep, so I'm utilizing them in that capicity only.

Might I add sqrl, our "salvation" is entirely about reflection that leads to insight. Each cycle has it's own particular "quirks", if you will. Each cycle reveals something new and different about ourselves and our lives and when the cycling is all said and done, we're better for it. Cycling is hell, it's not easy trying to separate "yourself" from it, especially because the emotional reaction to the chemical imbalance is quite overwhelming...in good ways and in bad ways. It's like being caught in a spiders web or something, and the black widow comes along and eats you alive. I know that I will never master the ability to remove myself from hideous affects of bp, the viscious affects of bp, the frustration of bp....but I will get better and better at dealing with it and continually get to know myself more intimately.

Okay, okay, enough said. I guess I'm feeling rather expressive today. And I love "expressing" with you sqrl. Meeting you here is a highlight for me because you are so understanding and always able to give a fresh and insightful persective. This is a real talent of yours.
TgrsPurr.