I want to cry. I want to cry my eyes out like a baby. I want to go to bed now at 7:30 pm and stay there for ten hours. My therapy is getting so close to my heart and my core. I am getting close to myself and tonight T was so close to me. He was so right there with me today. His empathy was soft and his interpretations spot on. I was able to tell him about my shame. I find this kindness really hard to accept. I am not accustomed to anyone being there. I have held these parts of me apart and separate and hidden for most of my life.

OMG THE TRANSFERENCE IS SO INTENSE I WOULD WALK ON COALS FOR HIM!!!

Oy.