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Old Nov 10, 2008, 09:42 PM
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Somehow I am afraid I am going to blow this. Like I have this chance to heal more, move forward, and I'm not going to be able to do it.
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I feel like I WANT to be ready, but I'll NEVER be ready, and it's just discouraging. I definitely, definitely feel like I'm doing something wrong. I am trying SO hard, and I don't know if it's getting me anywhere.
I kind of experienced this last week with my drawing exercise. When we discuss some of the figures, my T asked me, "This figure looks really scared, are you still really feeling like that in here?" I said, "Well,... yes, last session for whatever reason, the person sitting in that corner of the couch was feeling very anxious and frighten." I felt really bad about showing that fear in the picture because i know my T has worked very hard to make me feel safe. I really want to feel relaxed and comfortable in that seat, but sometimes I just don't.
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