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The only way out is through. Or so they say. I'm not through yet, but I have been where you are now and in fact I was there a few days ago. It is such a painful place.
I think our tendency to want to run away is the how we coped then, back in the day when we had no other recourse. So, it feels like the thing to do.
Hang in there. You are such a good and caring person...Once you get to know that side of you that we know you will be feeling a bit better!