holy smokes that was a long post I am too tired (self medicated my current hypo mania with xanax and vicodin (for my tooth ache)... so I don't have the energy to write half of what I want to. I have been putting up a lot of posts on my blog site about daily stuff I deal with, a lot of which sounds like you. maybe reading that will help you not feel so alone in all of this. if I can help you in any way, please let me know.

~Ann