It doesnt matter. I just feel like I am such a stupid idiot. I know what happened to me but I had to figure it out for myself. I dont understand why no one ever talked to me about it really no one said this is what happened this is what its called. They treated me like I was a stupid invisiable kid. Now I am an adult who was raped as a child and has a rotting raped child inside her that is rotten. Ok sorry for the drama just a little bit worn out.