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What doesnt help is that i dont like being alone, and im afraid of the dark. Somehow ive survived friday night, sat night sun night, and im working on monday night right now. Its so hard, i freak out a lot, the dog likes to bark at things outside (a leaf might blow by) etc, and i start to go into a panic because i think someone is outside (all doors are locked) but i freak out. I need to calm down, I have my Rottweiler with me, but somehow i still forget about being safe and go off the deep end. My anxiety has been so so bad.
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Do not stand at my grave and weep; I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn's rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there, I did not die. R.I.P. Bandit 7-12-08 I love you I miss you.
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