I'm in a very low place today. I saw my T yesterday and I guess a lot of emotions got stirred and I just can't seem to shake it. I did some cutting yesterday, which I hadn't done in weeks and this morning have repeatedly made myself throw up. I feel empty inside. We discussed my need to feel my "father-figure" hole inside, and how I put him (my T) in that spot. And I do. I won't go see him again until next week and part of me wants to see him now and the other part doesn't want to go back and get myself entagled in such emotional feelings. I don't know if any of this makes any sense. I just really need some support right now.