thanks guys....I don't want to goooooo 1.5 hours. My stomach is turning...I don't understand why I can't just friggin calm down. I really want to stop at a liquor store on the way and knock back a couple of mini bottles

I will try and bring up these issues with T today, that's IF i can bring my self to say more than 3 words in a sentence, which is usually "I don't know" or "maybe, I guess". I can think of everything I want to say to her, but when I get there the words won't come to me because. Sorry to sound juvenile, but this sucks!!!