Thanks for all the replies.I really want to see a pdoc,my therapist says he has recommended it,it's just a waiting game now.I'm uninsured and there for put to the back of the line,but i'm in line none the less which is cool,something to look forward to.In the two visits i've had with my therapist so far,i've pretty much left him speechless.There's that awkward pause,and then "would you have any problems with taking medication",and he's realistic about it,tells me it's not a cure all,etc.,in which i completely understand.This therapist seems completely invested and cares and has offered to help with filling out paper work,etc.

While i know meds are not a cure all,i know there has been something hay-wire for a long time.And now it has been sandwiched in between some stressfull events that i have zero control.And when i have zero control and every day is literally the same (no exaggeration),it's like i got two streams of depression going on,if that makes any sense.