I finally called and set up an appointment to speak with a T, but I think I’ve already botched it, before I‘ve even seen him; when he asked why I need/want to come, I basically stated ,“I’m not good with people I want to be better with people” I know I said something else but I was kind of grasping at straws and don’t remember what exactly. I know I’m not good when it comes to speaking to others(in person or on a phone), I never say what I really mean, I can’t get it to come out right even though it is perfect in my head. This is only a small part of why I know I need to come, because I feel like I am imploding on the inside even though I don’t know why and I am terrified that I may just explode and be no more. My question is, is T really something that might be beneficial if I’m not really good at saying what I need and/or want, even though I know I want it (and unfortunately can't actually say what I need/want, at least not without taking quite a bit of time to think and even then I don‘t know ?? If this doesn’t make sense I apologize.