I guess the proper protocol would to label this post with possible "triggers"
I'm new here

Just wondering if anyone gets really bad episodes of rage and anger?

I get some pretty bad rage.And i'm a pretty irritable person,it doesn't take much.And when i do get angry the thoughts in my head turn pretty violent and at times pretty vivid.And the dialog in my head,that inner dialog carries on conversations by itself,interacts in scenerios be itself,things get so vivid internally i sometimes look around the room and wonder did i just convey that internal dialog externally,then boom! anxiety attack. I know even if i didn't convey all that mental traffic externally i know there had to be some sort of outward sign,a grimace,dead eyes,cause i nodded off to my own little
world.My poker face is horrible theses days.A lot of "head traffic" with no palm trees or rest stops.I'm either horribly depressed or angry as hell and then the angry thoughts get dark and then i have to pretend to snap out of it all quickly cause i'm a caretaker and i don't want that person i'm caring for to think he is a burden.But honestly everything is a burden these days and these days aren't changing anytime soon.