(((((((((Vince))))))))) If you were to truly search your heart--step away from the pain and search your heart and mind--you would know instantly that you matter. That you are important. That you are worthy. Vince, your childhood has left scars both physical and emotional that are horrendous--that does not make you horrendous. Do you value Kate and her intelligence and worth so little that you think she is with you just for the hell of it? Vince, you have two babies and one on the way, you have Kate. If you never have anything else in your life, you have the world right there. Please don't think I'm being mean, I'm not trying to; I'm just begging you to see that you are valuable, that though you retain the scars from the past, you are not your past. I can't even begin to imagine the horrors and the emotional effect of them. The fact that you are here, at pc, tells me you have so much strength. You can get through this. Minute by minute by minute if you have to. Tired, scared and injured animals don't have to wait for the hunter...they can wait for the help, the love and help that will heal them. It happens, and it can happen to you. The pack can rest for awhile, lick your wounds so to speak, but Vince, you need to hang on. To say that your life does not matter and that your impact is minimal is wrong. Think about this: your 3 kids will grow up without you. Without the love and benefit of a father. But it doesn't stop there. Someday when they are older, they will have someone that loves them, who will share their pain. Kate will have to live her life without you. That's a pretty big impact!! You are so very important. The pain is making you feel like you aren't. Know you are loved and valued, both by Kate & your 3 kids and by people here. Me included.