My T's are so awesome. I get to a place where I feel like I will never ever get better. The body flashbacks from the kidnapping and assualt kept pouring in and in and in and in and I went to therapy today and just layed on the couch. My T asked me if she could sit by me and I said ok. She then asked if she coud put her hand on my shoulder and I said ok. This is huge for me. I would consider it comfort for the nine year old girl i was and it normally makes me mad. But she said that she absorbs the bad stuff out of my body into her and she would pee it out later . I told her some of the stuff the guy said to me that night. I never told anyone ever. It was so hard and I felt so hurt.I tried to let the bad pain flow out of my body into her hand. I left feeling kinda better but as I walked to my car I felt i coud breath again and I felt lighter. I had hope and the comfort wasnt so bad it was really really good. I know both of my T's are working so hard to help me. I asked my T if they teach her this stuff in therapy school and she said no she is flying by the steat of her pants???? What ever that means. LOL. But they are so open and honest and thy are connecting with me in a way that is healing me. Therapy school can only teach you so much. Human compassion is to me the biggest healing force in my therapy. I know that some T's dont touch their clients and some clients dont want that, but for me its about being human. Humans are made to connect with others. I used to hate being touched and now it feels so healing. I can feel the energy from my T's flowing and it tells me that they really dont hate me and they dont think I am gross for what happened to me. Telling your yucky stuff to a human who has such a deep level of love and compassion for another human is so healing. most of u know that i had a horriable childhood and early adult hood and when I was small I got all of my nurturing from dogs. I would lay in this box they had as a home with them and lay my head on their side and that closeness of another life I think got me through. So my T's are like that with a dog you can tell them anything or nothing and they just know how you feel by your body energy. Then when you lay with them you release your energy into them and get their energy back and it sooths you and comforts you. Ok I am not saying T's have to be like dogs I am just saying that life is so much more them talking sometimes healing comes in deeper levels. does this make sense? Or am i just weird?