im just as bad tonight as everynight and im tired of being this way. during the day i can stay busy. not that my thoughts are quiet but my body is busy. i cant get on the computer either. at night because i cant sleep, the house is quiet and my thoughts run wild. i am tired of the pain, and just want it done. however that happens. im trying to keep my head busy. im listening to my mp3 player. i dont know how i got here. and i dont know how to get out. right now the depression is talking so loud i cant tell whats underneath. i really need to stay out of the hospital. i want to know what to do.